As with all the holiday's, birthdays, and events the first ones without your love one is the hardest. Do they ever get easier? Do they get better? I don't know but the love in my heart still grows and grows knowing that together we will be together again. That is very important to me. As the time nears my sister wanted to know what our plans were for this holiday. I think I would like for it to be my family, her family, and daddy. We can meet at daddy's house and have a good lunch and love on each other, laugh and share time. That is what I want to happen. Simple, easy and lots of love. I am a proud mother to my two sons, my sister, Angie, is a proud mother to an awesome son and beautiful daughter. So we do not want to take away from our children spending Mother's Day and the celebration of it for them. It has almost been the first anniversary date of her going home to the Lord. I don't know what we will do then. I know that only God has brought me to a place that I am actually getting up each day and can smile. For 10 months I could not do anything but sleep, get up for the few hours the family came in from work and went right back to bed. If I was asleep, I didn't have to hurt, cry and hurt and think. Only God's grace opened up my soul to be well. Thank you my sweet Heavenly Father! You are my rock.